hopeful

well, i can't help but feel it.
i would bet that its going to backfire on me.
but i really really don't want it to.

must read books (a list)

Choke by Chuck Palahniuk
The Unthinkable Thoughts of Jacob Green by Joshua Braff
The Wings of the Dove by Henry James
the "Sookie Stackhouse" books by Charlaine Harris

Pride and Prejudice and Zombies: The Classic Regency Romance - Now with Ultraviolent Zombie Mayhem by Jane Austen and Seth Grahame-Smith
Sarah's Key by Tatiana de Rosnay
Revolutionary Road by Richard Yates
The Brief Wondrous Life of Oscar Wao by Junot Diaz
Julie and Julia: My Year of Cooking Dangerously by Julie Powell
Generation S.L.U.T.: A Brutal Feel-up Session with Today's Sex-Crazed Adolescent Populace by Marty Beckerman
Impulse by Ellen Hopkins
The Perks of Being a Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky
Such a Pretty Fat: One Narcissist's Quest to Discover if Her life Makes Her Ass Look Big or Why Pie Is Not the Answer by Jen Lancaster

that's it for now.

a joke.

why must cleaning always be a chore?

ha.

get it?

thank you

for always ruining low flying planes for me.

that's the last thing i will let you rob from me.

sometimes

you read a book.
a good book that takes you totally by surprise.
never thought it would be that good.

downside? it made me realize i'm incredibly uncool.

never ever have i ever...

...oh wait.


yes i have.

generalized anxiety disorder.

you know that all too familiar twinge of panic you feel?
the one you think you got rid of, but is always there, putting you on edge?
making you lose sleep.
making you wonder.
making you question.

making you feel undeniably alone?

thats me.
and no amounts of klonopin will get rid of me.
enjoy.